I’ve been dealing with a couple things this past week or two, that seem to still be lingering, hanging around, haunting me. First, I remembered exactly what it was like to be buried alive (the first & longest … Continue reading
Just Five
Yeah, that’s her NAME — or, at least, what she prefers to be called right now. She’s “just five” (years old). She came out the other night, let us all know about some things, and helped me to understand … Continue reading
Hiding, Resting
I have started feeling bad for increasingly neglecting this blog and my DID blogger friends, whom I sincerely admire and appreciate. I apologize, dear friends. For the time being, I am withdrawn a bit into myself, mostly working. This involves a lot of … Continue reading
Drop this, Drop that
I have just seen the pattern I have been living: In order to maintain any semblance of stability or functionality, I tend to drop whatever I can, as soon as something new is piled on my plate — be it … Continue reading
My Weakness
My Weakness Caused You Pain (Britney Spears – Everytime) I don’t much like Ms. Spears, but lately this song has been in my head. Today, after a big fight where my Mate and I triggered the crap out of each … Continue reading
Stabilizing
I am actually feeling pretty stable this past week. I was trying to figure out WHY, just this morning… so I can help it STAY this way! Here are some contributing factors: I have been “Righting” first thing every … Continue reading
Who’s the Boss?
I have been very frustrated lately, quite at odds with myself — and I just figured out why. First of all, almost every little part of me has a very strong desire to be “good”. There is also … Continue reading
April’s Fool
Feel funny this morning. Like April’s fool. It’s been a pretty roller-coaster up-and-down week. I think it started with the 1981 movie, “Cannonball Run” I had ordered from Netflix. It triggered Gypsy (“Twitchy’s Twin”) to come out — and … Continue reading
Trust yourself. Create the kind of self that you will be happy to live with all your life. Make the most of yourself by fanning the tiny, inner sparks of possibility into flames of achievement.
–Golda Meir
“Abby”
“Voices” are NOT my personalities, and they are not things I have heard with my ears (as in auditory hallucinations). My Voices are the self-talk of individual hearts that I have empathized with. Do any of my Voices sound … Continue reading
“Terry”
“Voices” are NOT my personalities, and they are not things I have heard with my ears (as in auditory hallucinations). My Voices are the self-talk of individual hearts that I have empathized with. Do any of my Voices sound … Continue reading
Not So Great
Still haven’t felt much like writing lately. Partly it’s because I’ve been down, discouraged, and overwhelmed with time & money pressures. But it is also simply because I’ve been burning myself out on writing in order to make some (future) … Continue reading
Art for Therapy Bridges Collage
[Haven't wanted to write lately - lots of pain - almost got divorced even - just wanna share myself through art right now, and otherwise hide myself away and lick my wounds. -- SynthGirl ] I haven’t had … Continue reading
Jo Jo’s Eyes
So many real places Converted to dreams At last understanding It’s just how she sees There always is darkness And yet she still sees No limits in danger And no pressing needs Fear’s her companion Survival her plan She wipes … Continue reading
Standing On Knees
whispers of failure shout in my ear empty with longing filled up with fear when will I climb high sit in His lap look in the mirror see somethin’ but crap when my heart shudders breathe my last … Continue reading
Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.
– Edgar Allan Poe
Little Kid Dreams
I had a good talk with my youngest son last night, and we ended up talking a little bit about dreams. Since he is taking Psychology in high school (he says it’s the most interesting content for a class … Continue reading
Hanging In There
[pic = I feel like this little green plant, surrounded by desert but not tooooooo far away from the greener pastures] Well, there is more hope now. I think all those prayers really helped — thanks, everyone!! Let’s … Continue reading
Just Don’t Know
I have wanted to keep up with people on their blogs, but haven’t been able to. I apologize for not reading, not leaving comments lately. I have wanted to keep them up with me by adding a post to say how … Continue reading
Watch Me Grow
I always get these “great ideas” — whether they be clothes designs, book ideas, lines of poems, or whatever. And I almost always either write them down in my little leather “idea book” or else I chuck them off … Continue reading
My awesome oldest son — who knows me soooo well — gave me two necklaces for my birthday last year. Each has a little quote on the front, both of which I am really feeling today.
The first is like a little clock and says, “So many Books, so little Time”… I think that is the motto of my life, heehee!
The second says, “If you have a garden and a library, you have everything you need. — Cicero”… Well, I don’t have a garden because I moved to a state that is too dry for me to understand as yet… And I don’t really have a library, but I went to one yesterday, and it was all I needed to cheer up and find some strength and determination inside me, to fight my way forward.
I also found a good book that breathes straight into my spirit… “How People Grow — What the Bible Reveals about Personal Growth” by Dr’s Cloud and Townsend… Highly Recommended!
Lost & Floundering
Since Friday morning, I have been lost and floundering. It’s like God shook whatever fence I was on, and now I’m on the ground, looking around, seeing everything from a new perspective. Things I take for granted as certain and … Continue reading
A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks others have thrown at him.
– David Brinkley